New Chapter Is Turned Its Page

I’m a bit settle into my new apartment in Batavia, NT at the moment. Surely it will be quite of an adjustment since my drive to work and school will be a whole lot longer (from 5-10 mins to 40 – an hour). Also, snow season is ahead of me which I get anxious every time when I allow myself to get rounding up in its story (which I know better not to do, of course). But honestly, I’m excited and at peace for this chapter of mine as it is turned its page.

Since I moved to Buffalo in 2008, I have been moving to four different cities which is fairly a lot. One move is guided to the other which is truly amazing every time when I can certainly say to myself “I’m guided”.

I have heard, read and inspired to connect with my inner teacher, intuition, or God for so many years; surely I really want to know how to do it. I feel like I’m a good candidate for it because I read a lot of inspirational books about it, practicing yoga regularly, mediating regularly, eating healthy food, but for a while I was wondered where and who exactly this magical inner teacher.

When I indeed got it, it was when I had Bell Palsy. The one ingredient that needed most for me to connect to my intuition was surrender. I mean real surrender. Bell Palsy brought me to the very most venerable place of my being. I completely lost my identity (my face >

). I couldn’t turn to any places or any ones to find what was making sense at a time, but something greater than myself which of course I always try to turn into. However, I know now that I was always standing against my own practice (ego is great). But with Bell Palsy I wasn’t. I was able to surrender to the situation completely and finally, humbly listen.

To my experience, intuition or God communicates with me in so many forms. Sometime, they are immediately quite voices which answer questions I asked. This form of communication is kind a fun sometime because some answers are able to catch my ego off guard. Sometime the communication is my experience of deep quite peace within. One unforgettable situation of experience this form of communication was when I stood on a beautiful open land and able to saw trees in miles. I asked the Universe about how I am going to move to be with my ex-boyfriend in AZ when I felt so happy where I was. No voice ever came to me, but extreme peace was flooded into my being. This form of experience to me is the best surrender practices ever because I don’t hear any direction or what should I do. So I have to build trust toward where I am and embrace it with letting go of the need to have to do something. And then sometime guidance comes through other human beings. It is a regular communication I have with other beings, but yet the massages I receive sometime have greater force behind them. Great example for it was my direction to go back to school. I will never forget about how it was happened. Aneela is a beautiful being and was at Rising Sun Yoga studio trading her hours to do chores with free yoga classes at a time. She is the light of life, and always enthusiastic about being humans. She had so much fun with school. So every time when she saw me and was able to talk about school, she would always end up telling me why school is so great and why I should go back. Surely, I didn’t care (for a while), but enjoying her happiness. Then one day the massage came through her differently. I felt another force behind her voice, and my deep determination for the need to go back to school gone up a thousand notches. I knew I was guided. Another amazing thing on top of this experience was that my ego tried to talk myself out of not to listen to my intuition. Ego talks “Seriously, when you don’t practice enough of listening to your own intuition, you just want to make sure that you aren’t the crazy one here and do something stupid”. Sincerely I asked for another massage and I got it. I’m sold and I’m better now to listen and choose not to go against my journey, destiny, or my life like moving to Batavia.

Listen to our own intuition may not bring us a fortune financially, but abundance peace, happiness, and freedom. Listen to our own inner teacher isn’t about getting rid of challenges, and disappointment, but be where we supposed to be with open heart and trust. Listen to God may take us away from our comfort zone, but if we remember to not be limited, we will be blessed with what is ahead of us.

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